So we just set up the 24-7 prayer room, starting tomorrow night in sunny St Andrews...quite a lot of slots still empty- maybe something to do with the fact we didn't tell anyone it would happen until this weekend.
me and God are really not on first name terms at the moment, its hard.  Hard hard hard.  I have a lot of agenda's and i realised that having an agenda with God is as destructive to your relationship as it is when you have an agenda with another person ('i want to make them love me', 'i want them to understand my 'signals'', 'i want to have what they have').  I guess it's nothing to do with 24-7, but me and naomi were chatting today about 'unconditional love'- especially in relation to people who are- how should i put it, very easy to love.  I think unconditional love is one of those infinite regress issues though,

-'I love them because i want something' is bad....
-I love them because they are lovable....is also not unconditional because it is a product of my opinion
-I love them because they are worth loving...i don't think i could honestly say God has changed me enough that i see everyone as 'worth' the same- they are still 'worth' something in relation to how i feel about them

....So the regress has to lead back to unconditional love not for individual people, but in general- for anyone and everyone, otherwise it isn't unconditional, it's conditional on their being who they are to me.  Im just not sure ill ever get there, but will my love for anyone ever have integrity if i don't?  Just a thought...

Anyway, 24-7...excited i think.  There are loads of people i want to come along...i hope they do...i will try not to leave my journal there again this time...slightly awkward when your 'top 10' gets published round town (ONLY KIDDING- i only have a top 1...it begins with 'J'....)

Bye for now
DebOrah

(...esus).